Saturday, November 29, 2008
Blooming at 51!!
There's a lot going on in my life right now. All very exciting stuff! I feel so much alive!
I'm not going to share every detail with you because some stuff is private and concerns others but lets say that there's love in the air!
Ever since I did the Biophoton therapy I feel great and I have so much more energy. Last week I went to see the therapist for the last time. Now I just have to go there maybe 3 or 4 times a year just for a check up. Because I have more energy I'm more interested in learning new stuff and going on an adventure or exploring the world. Isn't that just cool!!
Falling in love also has to do with the way I feel today and the last couple of weeks. I feel like a complete new woman. It's not just that I fell in love with this great guy but I also fell in love with myself and I'm finally in peace with the person that I am. For the record: I'm not having a relationship with this guy but there's something special between the two of us!
There's something you have to know about me to better understand where I'm coming from. I have been a victim of rape in the past, not once but 3 times! So my self esteem has been very low for a very long time. I was almost 20 when I was raped the first time. After I got raped the last time (11 years ago) I lost all interest in men or sexual intimicy. That changed when I fell in love and it changed even more about a month ago when I suddenly got through the message (it was more like a thought that suddenly popped out in my head from nowhere) that I had to look into Tantra. At that point I only knew of the existence of the word Tantra and that it had to do something with sex, but that was all. So, I bought this book about Tantra from Margot Anand: Tantra, a way to intimicy and ecstacy. There are a lot of exercises in this book that you can do on your own so that you learn to feel comfortable with your own body. I started dancing and looking in my eyes in front of the mirror every day. It was very strange in the beginning but after a couple of weeks I started to feel more and more comfortable and finally last Sunday I realised I have grown to really love myself and feeling comfortable with me and my body. Other people (friends and neighbours) have noticed it too.
So yesterday I went to the sauna for the first time in my life. A huge step for me to do this! My friend Ina and I decided some time ago to go to a Spa in Nieuweschans. A couple of weeks ago I told her I wasn't interested in going to the sauna but the new me decided she wanted to go there.
The Spa in Nieuweschans is about a 45 minutes drive from where we live. There's a source with salty water and we first stayed in this water (37 degrees Celsius) in an outdoor pool for about 30 minutes. It was very relaxing. After a stay in the lavender room and the restroom we had lunch and after that we went to the sauna.
Inside there were a steam sauna, a heat sauna and an infra red sauna, a lovely swimmingpool with a strong jet stream so you could swim up against it without moving forward. I thought that was cool.
There also was a place where you could warm your feet before you went into a sauna and a place where you could scrub your body. Upstairs there was a deck where you could rest in between the visits to the sauna. Outside in the garden there was another sauna. A really big one for 60 people or so! There were also cold showers and a plunge bath (?) with really cold water. The first time I just took a cold shower (in tiny steps) but after the second round I went into the plunge bath and after the plunge bath I even put ice shavings (?) all over my body. It felt great. There also was a hut tub outside and a cool place where you could sit next to an open fire. We didn't went there because there wasn't enough time. My friend had to be home at 4 o'clock so we had to leave after the second round.
What surprised me the most about this first visit to the sauna is, that it felt so normal to be around other naked people, men and women. In the past I felt really uncomfortable with the idea of other people looking at my naked body or me looking at their naked bodies.
So now I'm officially hooked on the sauna and almost can't wait to go there again!
Although it's not allowed to take photos inside the Spa I took a few just before we had to leave. I show you the only photo I dared to take from the outside pool.
A friendly German gentleman (Nieuweschans is very close to the German border so there are always a lot of Germans in the Spa) who arrived at the Spa when we left the building took a photo of Ina and me in front of the entrance of the Spa.
Another great thing that happened yesterday is that Ina and I decided to follow this course in Oriental dancing (Egyptian belly dancing). It'll start on the 9th of December in Groningen. The night before yesterday I tumbled accidently (or maybe not accidently but it just had to be this way) on this website. Because I have always had the desire to learn how to belly dance I was immediately interested. I told Ina about the belly dancing and she was also very interested. Lucky for us there was still room for new students. I hope I'll be able to make the moves!! If you click here you can watch Aina teach other women how to belly dance.