Martha's wall hanging project.

Just finished Martha's project from Sunday at SAL: a cute vintage wall hanging!! Hers was called Out on a Whim but I changed the title into Not just any girl!
On the photo I used for this wall hanging I'm about 6 or 7 years old. It's around that age I got confused about who I was. I wasn't sure that I was loved because I wasn't feeling happy at home nor at school. I got the impression that I wasn't okay like the way I was, that I had to change to be excepted by my parents, the school teacher, the other kids ....
If only I'd had a person in my life that would have said right then: You're not just any girl, you're unique and your special just as you are!

I'm not feeling very well at the moment. I hope I won't get sick!! I tried to eat something this morning and almost vomited. My intestins also aren't working properly and I still feel tired! I have an appointment with the Biophotones therapist later today, so I hope he can do something for me.

I also have had (again) a not so pleasant talk with the schoolcab driver early this morning. When he arrived a little bit after 7.30 am he told me right away that he wasn't planning on waiting longer then 2 minutes (they're officially allowed to wait for 2 minutes, but because Zander is never ready he always had to wait longer then those 2 minutes). But because he was late this morning Zander was ready and walked to the cab. Then the cab driver told me that Zander should be ready at 7.32 am. I made a remark about that the whole year long he told us that Zander should be ready at 7.25 am, so why the sudden change? I got really confused when he told me with an angry voice that whole year long it had been 7.32 am, but that he came earlier because Zander was always late. That really got me confused and ennoyed, because Zander's pick up time has ALWAYS been 7.25 am from the beginning! It was he who told me this specific time the first time he came over. At that moment he didn't know yet that my son has problems with being on time! When I confronted him with that he got angry and said that "we" always make trouble and that he is fed up with us! Well, I'm totally fed up with him!! Especially because I now know that Zander had been on time whole year long and that all the complaining he did about Zander not being ready at 7.25 am wasn't justified. Zander always has been ready at 7.32 am!!! URGHHH
I called the company he works for and made a complaint about his behavior. I almost never complain but this time I feel a great injustice is done to me and my son!
Then I got even more confused because I learned that my son could be picked up even later (like 7.40 am) because he arrives way to early at school (between 8 and 8.10 am) and has to wait untill 8.45 am before classes start (which is way to long for a boy with autism like my son!!). Yesterday the driver told me that he wanted to be at school around 8 am to avoid the traffic jams. But today I found out that that is not a reason for a driver to pick up the children that early! The guy I spoke to on the phone is going to have a conversation with the driver and is phoning me back later today or this weekend. The driver will probably hate me from now on, but I don't care, as long as he's not projecting his anger on my son and make his stay in the cab miserable (some drivers do that!!). Big sigh!